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What Is Aphantasia?

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What is aphantasia? It’s the inability to create images with your mind. I recently learned that I have this condition. It has been a wild ride ever since. I have been testing friends and family members to see how widespread the condition is within my circle. It appears that I have a few friends that have it but most do not. It roughly aligns with the estimate that there is two to five percent of the population with the condition.


The phenomenon didn’t receive a name until cognitive neurologist Adam Zeman coined the term aphantasia in 2015. The name comes from the ancient Greek words “a” meaning “without” and “phantasia” meaning “imagination.” Oddly, this condition was first described in 1880, yet it appears to be relatively undiscovered. It wasn’t first studied until 2005 when a man developed aphantasia during surgery.

How I See It

The world is beautiful. I see images with strong clarity, and some say I have a great eye.

A picture I took in Prague

I’ve enjoyed staring into the black and white void I see under my eyelids while others have used it for a canvas. I wondered why people would tell me that counting sheep can put you to sleep. It does absolutely nothing for me. 🐑

It’s mind-boggling that I didn’t learn about this condition during the going on fifty years of my life. I can give myself a bit of a break. I have strong mental models of things and stuff in the world. When people have told me to visualize something I can pull up my mental models and become creative.

I wonder if everyone without aphantasia thinks that imagining is purely the conjuration of images in the mind’s eye. When I imagine things I wonder about possibilities, and I think about what could be. I don’t plaster images on my mental canvas. I don’t paint pictures with unique attributes. My approach when imagining is to use often vague ideas of things with connective relationships between them. I form a reality into my mind as I change attributes while considering new possibilities.

It’s No Big Deal

To me, this isn’t an Earth shattering revelation. It’s very interesting to me as I’ve always been curious about psychology. It’s fascinating to think about how unbelievably unique our points of view are in this world. We’re all walking around with a totally different idea about how the world works, and how ourselves work. I’m glad for our differences and I’m happy to learn about myself when it might seem like a disability.

I’ve considering what it would take to become a Psychologist with a heavy helping of data science. I would be traveling from the tech industry to psychology so it wouldn’t be easy, but I sure would find it fascinating.

If you landed on this post please share this information with your friends. I’m eminently curious to see what happens when enough people know about this condition to deeply study it. Who knows, maybe I can conjure an image one day with the help of science. 🧬